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”風の時代を読み、流れを感じ、共に歩む”

The Moment I Realized My Body and Mind Were Falling Apart

“気づいたら、壊れかけていた体と心”

Back then, I believed that working hard was the same as living.
Every morning I left home at the last possible minute,
and when I finally returned at night, I would collapse on the floor—too exhausted to do anything.

Between work and home, my meals consisted of supermarket side dishes and boxed lunches.
Pre-cut vegetables made me feel like I was eating healthy,
and vegetable juice made me think I was taking care of myself.
Whatever was still missing, I tried to make up for with energy drinks and supplements.

I kept telling myself, I’ll be fine.
A bit of fatigue, a mild headache—everyone feels that sometimes.
If I couldn’t shake the exhaustion, I blamed it on age.
That’s how I kept myself going back then.

But one morning, when I woke up and tried to stand,
my legs felt as heavy as lead.
There was no pain—just a strange numbness,
as if the signal from my brain wasn’t reaching my body.
Even walking a few meters made me dizzy,
and just looking at the stairs filled me with despair.

A little rest will fix this.
I’ll feel better after some sleep.
That’s what I kept believing.
But day by day, my body stopped responding—
as though it were slowly shutting down.

Before I knew it, even moving around my home wasn’t easy anymore.
Reaching for something in the refrigerator, doing the laundry—
each small action became a test of endurance.

It was then that I realized for the first time
how precious it is simply to move your body.
Something so ordinary, so taken for granted, was actually sacred.

From that moment, it felt as though a second life had begun.
In this blog, I want to share the insights, lessons, and bits of wisdom
I’ve gained through that journey—
with anyone who, like I once did, finds themselves lost and struggling
at a turning point in their life.